I feel so sad 😭So yesterday I was messaging my bf...fell asleep mid convo...anyway I woke up many…

I feel so sad 😭So yesterday I was messaging my bf...fell asleep mid convo...anyway I woke up many hours later. Missed a call from him...thought that was odd as he never calls. So message him and he said he was worried etc. I was still half asleep at this point and so confused...not like id been gone a whole day. But then he explain just before his friend comitted suicide he disappeared mid convo and he has so much anxiety because of it...and its not the first time...just the first time hes said something... he said he wanted to spam me with messages but he just told himself to be rational. In my head i was like oh shit...i was literally crying for an hour because of it... Felt so bad and kept apologising etc. 😭😭😭😭 I so badly wanted to hug him...but couldnt... I dont know when ill next see him as hes busy with work..its his dads birthday tomorrow. Im just so traumatised 😣😣😣😢😢😢