Okay. So. I’m gonna warn, I may sound like a tight wad and just a total ass. Idk what’s wrong with me. So, if you’ve been through anything similar please feel free to share. :(

I lost my younger daughter the end of last year.. ever sense, I’m obviously not the same. My other kids, I’m totally there for. But, my fiancé. Nothing.

I feel no need to come to him when I’m sad and depressed about that or anything. I prefer to deal with things on my own. I don’t want to hug or love on him. And I get soooo annoyed when he tries to love on me... in any form. Even hugs.

I’m having a hard time excepting his son. Truthfully, he has sooo many issues it’s unreal. And this little boy, literally gives me panic attacks and he is consistently trying to get his dad and I to fight. For a while, he called me mom and wanted to bond and it’s like now that my kids are around more (they live with my mom while I was getting settled so they would have a stable school year.) he seems to try and get me fighting with his dad and everyone else.

I just don’t know what to do. I’m bipolar, Un medicated and just going through sooo much.

But is it normal to not want anything to do with your fiancé?! We’ve been friends for 7 years before we ever got together.: so it’s not like he’s new. I don’t understand.

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