Something that I wrote to my daughter or son; feel free to read❤ ; On January 16th I took a test. And if this test had…

Something that I wrote to my daughter or son; feel free to read❤️;

On January 16th I took a test. And if this test had turned up positive, I knew our lives would never be the same again. I was more than nervous and I was apprehensive that this test would turn up negative and all the symptoms I had been feeling was my body just fooling me and robbing me of something I had longed to feel for awhile now.. So I peeped on the stick and waited anxiously... our bathroom was dark and so the second I got a glimpse of that blank space turning into two lines all I wanted to do was scream and cry and also panic a bit. When I showed your dad, I had noticed a look in his eyes that I’d never seen before.. I couldn’t really tell how he was feeling but little did I know he was excited and happy... And now that test turned into doctors appointments and our first ultrasound that was just a couple weeks ago. I got to hear your heartbeat for the first time and I got to see how far along you had been growing inside my womb; however long I had been providing for a life I didn’t know that your daddy and I had made quite yet before now. Before we had found out about you I had struggled with wanting to be alive everyday, I was fighting something dark and cold within myself that was hard to live with and I think your dad was too.. but now that you’re going to be here we have a reason to keep moving forward no matter how hard it’s going to be.. I don’t want to sound selfish but in a way, I guess you saved us.. You have definitely saved me. And I can’t wait to be your savior and give you a life you deserve.. ❤️