This was a year ago. This was my motherhood. My view on newborns. All my son did was scream…

This was a year ago. This was my motherhood. My view on newborns. All my son did was scream violently. I never got a break. Never got a chance to bond with him and enjoy him when he was this small. His colic quickly lead me into a downward spiral to develop PPD and PPA. I wish I could have had a “normal” baby experience. The snuggles, coos etc. I feel like I was robbed of truly enjoying motherhood. And here I am he’s almost 14 months still hoping things will turn around. Though he’s more calm now his fire breathing moments send me back to those days where I felt so overwhelmed and worthless. There was a night I specifically remember driving to the fire station crying because I felt I wasn’t good enough. That will always haunt me. Please mamas if you’re suffering please ask for help! Post partum Depression is a very real scary thing #motherhood #newmom #oneyearago #ppd #postpartumdepression #ppa