I need to be honest with my self “what am I doing to my self yes I love him....but I don’t want him…

I need to be honest with my self “what am I doing to my self yes I love him....but I don’t want him anymore I guess...I just don’t want any one else to have him he is on a high horse like no one can touch him smh like he cant do no wrong like he has never lied and never did anything my god 😩😩😩 it’s just the more reason y I can’t take it anymore...I feel like he is one of a kind that thinks everything is going to work out or never stay the same idk...I need to talk to some one I have an headache just by thinking about everything that’s has been going on.....