Taking things so hard today... not only is it cold as the North Pole here today but we have no money…

Taking things so hard today... not only is it cold as the North Pole here today but we have no money and have been struggling every week to find money to pay bills. My man does seasonal concrete work and isn't proactive in finding a job this winter since I tried but got my ass kicked by working retail thanks to being pregnant. I also feel miserable thanks to being so large. Sleep sucks. I really just want her to come, want to get my tax refund, want my man to start back at work, i want my job to start back up, I want it to be march so I can start my class, and I so badly want to get my camera so I can do my side work that I love doing. February is going to be rough :( hopefully girly comes so she can make it easier to smile.