It sucks when you dont have many friends and the only 2 girls I'm close to that I call my best…

It sucks when you dont have many friends and the only 2 girls I'm close to that I call my best friends I dont know of they r busy which most likely they are but the wont message back it hurts ever since Nov I have been going down hill fast and dont know what to do my brother in law more like a brother past away in Nov I was in therapy b4 he pasted bc I have problems any way I went to therapy earlier this month and was very upset with how I was treated I walked put still made an appointment to go back well today I just canceled the appointment today since its coming up next week I stopped all my depression and anxiety meds cold turkey early this month so that dont help in december my on/gyn Dr saw I had a bad shaking in my legs and hands so he made me an appointment to go to a nero Dr i go there on the 29th I am so nerves last time I was at a nero dr it was bc I had a severe concussion they want ed to do a ct scan so I never went bad I was 17 I am now 22 and scared to find out somethung is wrong with me since I already have so many health issues some days I wonder why my body is still fighting but I remeber my daughter needs me as a mother and that's why I am here but I still feel so alone