Sorry I really need to get this off my chest. Ugh lately my husband and I have not been on the same…

Sorry I really need to get this off my chest.

Ugh lately my husband and I have not been on the same page hell I don't even know if we are on the small chapter. It really sucks that he doesn't make time for us anymore but yet says I am his world and he loves me when he can't even be in the same room as me for two long and doesn't even come to bed at the same time and sometimes doesn't even come to bed. I feel like I am a single mom and kinda feel like giving up on making him come to bed and spend time with us if he doesn't want to change I can't change him. I keep having dreams about me cheating on him because some guy give me the attention I want and I have also been fantasizing about me and what ever guy I see in a photo or video that hot. Ugh I hate this. I just don't know what to do anymore he knows our relationship is not good and yet he doesn't want to work on it and I am the only that has. I just wish I had some to talk to about this that I really trust but I don't a have best friend and I just don't tell anyone about my relationship other then this app because 1 yall really don't know me and won't be telling all of our family or family our business.