I'm so nervous to get my blood test back.... the rest of my life rides on those test.. and if they come out bad my whole…

I'm so nervous to get my blood test back.... the rest of my life rides on those test.. and if they come out bad my whole world will change and I'll be devistated.. not to mention now that I've had my scare with having blood clots I lay awake scared what if I throw another one but next time I don't have any symptoms and it kills me next time... I'm normally not a negative person I try to look at the bright side and now worry about the bad.. but my close call with death has me scared shitless!!