So my boyfriend not only helped me apply for school today but he also paid for the application and…

So my boyfriend not only helped me apply for school today but he also paid for the application and my high school transcript (I had no idea you had to pay for that). And I feel bad about it. I'm paying him back obviously but I still feel weird. I think it's because I'm not used to someone doing nice things for me. This is the first relationship I've had that's not abusive and sometimes I still feel weird. Sometimes I don't know how to react to it and now I'm crying cuz I don't know how to react to someone caring about me and I feel messed up.