Just need to vent::::Before my husband now I was with a guy for two years and only reason I stayed…

Just need to vent::::Before my husband now I was with a guy for two years and only reason I stayed with him was because I got pregnant with his kid...it was a very abusive relationship and when my now husband seen how bad I was he stepped in...before that guy I was with him for 7 years, he was my high school sweet heart and he broke up with me before leaving for college. When we got back together we went to the court house and got married...spontaneous yes, but never looked back and got full custody over my son which my now husband plans on adopting! Today we had a small argument...it was done and over with just like that it was more of a disagreement lol, but he tossed my sons sippy to fill up and he thought nothing of it till he seen me freak out and then I apologized to him and he just gave me a huge hug saying it’s okay he didn’t mean to freak me out...and I hate the fact that he is such an amazing guy and has to deal with my baggage...he is helping me through this and I am glad to have him by my side and we are planning on having a baby but think we are going to set that aside while I get myself figured out first but I don’t know how to tell him because he is such an amazing dad to my son and so supportive and I know he wants a baby of his own! :(