Last night, I was an emotional wreck. Every possible negative thought ran through my head. My husband moved my vanity…
Last night, I was an emotional wreck. Every possible negative thought ran through my head. My husband moved my vanity set from my room to the closet in the bathroom. He had good intentions for doing so but I couldn't see that. That opened up all sorts of feelings I didn't know I had. I'm just so tired of giving up parts of my self. I fell in love at 19. And it's been all about him every since. I gave up my dreams, friends and family for him and the Military. Right when we got married, I got pregnant. Gave up my last name, body, JOB. I've had a job since I was 14. I love working, making my own money, meeting new people.now all I do all day is cook, clean,stare at these four walls and talk to my 1 year old son. I no longer feel like myself. Nothing in this house is under my name and that makes me feel.... idk, like a guest. I don't recognize who I am..I don't put myself first. I put my family first every single day. I mention to my husband that I want to go back to work, and all he could bring up is the cost of us going out to eat cause we ll b to tired to cook. The cost of daycare. And when he brings those things up, I just fall back and say nevermind. 😞 I don't know y'all. With this nausea, and these thoughts..... I'm just really unhappy.
Ralphina 😍😘😇·
Мама троих детей, ждёт четвёртого
Awww sorry hun just breath take it one step at a time ... look for activities around u n reach out to other mommies around u n get ideas
Laura Worstell·
Мама двоих (1 год, 3 года)
Did the exact same thing got married at 18 left everything/body stoped I knew and stoped talking to a recruiter to be with him three days after getting married I got pregnant we only knew each other for four months but the Skype relationship was hard so we said let’s give it a shot. Now we are having our third baby and I’m constantly feeling alone I do everything wrong and he can’t put down his phone.
Mar La💋·
Мама сына (1 год), беременна (13 нед.)
@tiinii, exactly how I feel! It really is hard. Everyday I wake it up and it's like yea, Ima focus on me and my needs... then I start feeling selfish and go right back to putting everyone else before me...him being a truck driver, I know that can't be easy him being gone all the time. What kinda dreams do you have for yourself?
Mar La💋·
Мама сына (1 год), беременна (13 нед.)
@worstell.laura96, we definitely need to work on our own happiness and catering to our selves. Because if we don't, our homes will fall apart. We keep everything afloat! I know for a fact you're not doing everything wrong. Waking up everyday and not giving up is far from doing anything wrong. What are your dreams? What is it do you really wanna do?
Laura Worstell·
Мама двоих (1 год, 3 года)
@mar_la, for the past 7 years I’ve wanted to join the military but I have it up for him. I told him after the baby I’m joining though. I’m not getting up anything else and I’m not asked my permission to do anything anymore I’m tired of having to watch what I do so I don’t make him mad.
Mar La💋·
Мама сына (1 год), беременна (13 нед.)
@worstell.laura96, yea I agree. If you don't join you really won't turly be happy.