I’m bitter as fuck. My SO’s stepsister is off shooting up. She and I found out we were pregnant the same week.and This…

I don't blame you my sil was on meth got pregnant twice and had abortions and we're having trouble

@nitarose070793, it seriously killed me to find out she is having a girl. Like why the fuck does she get a baby. She wanted to abort this baby. I talked her out of it because she was getting clean and she was supposed to be staying with my in-laws.

@jhalsted1995 oh wow. I'm sorry and 8 understand where your coming from. I'm here if you wanna talk

@nitarose070793, thank you. I’m sorry you had to read my angry bitter post. This isn’t the first time something like this has happened around us while we have been tying for another baby.

@jhalsted1995 it's okay I posted one like this a while ago

I am so sorry hun. I am here to talk if you want. My husbands cousin girlfriend got pregnant a little after I did with my second. She smoked, drank and did other things. I have a stillborn at 36 weeks and she has the nerve to cry when her baby is born with breathing problems and all. I never wanted to kill someone so much in my life! I do everything right and lose my son and you do all this shit and still have a baby.

@scarapella1, I’m so so sorry for the loss of your angel. I just needed to get it out somewhere before I started analyzing my life searching for what I did worse than heroine to cause me to lose our baby. I’m just at a loss for words. His aunt has a son two months older than my daughter and she is only 13 months sober of crack. Like what is wrong with that family. They’re addicted and super fertile apparently

It’s so unfair. I remember when I was still trying (I struggled to get pregnant) one of my family members gave birth and both the baby and Mom tested positive for meth! I had to help watch the baby withdrawing from drugs because the mom was in jail (warrant) and picked me to watch her instead of a foster family. Hardest thing I ever had to see or do.

@slwwesselman, I couldn’t imagine. I wish she would let me help her. She has a one year old son too. And he isn’t fed or changed let alone given attention and affection.

@jhalsted1995, anyone who does drugs while pregnant doesn’t deserve to be a mother in my opinion. It’s a shame that someone would choose an addiction over there child.

@slwwesselman, it’s not like she doesn’t have support to get clean. I offered to care for her son so she could detox safely and go to rehab... when she took her son from me I called the cops and they had EMTs come because I told them how malnourished he seemed. When they wanted to take him to the hospital she tried to say no so they filled a cps report too.

@jhalsted1995, if it was up to me I would keep anonymously reporting her to CPS. Sometimes the best place for people like her is jail, especially because she doesn’t want help.

@slwwesselman, reporting her doesn’t help currently because she won’t tell anyone where she is. Once they find her they’re taking her son but even when anyone in the family picks her up it’s always a different address and when CPS shows she is long gone...

@jhalsted1995, sounds awfully similar to one of my aunts. We had to literally take her kids away (with courts permission) because she kept running from CPS. I feel so bad for these kids.

@slwwesselman, why is it people like this can pop out beautiful healthy children left and right

@jhalsted1995, honestly I don’t even know. This is a question I struggle with constantly. It’s so unfair and puts so much hatred into my heart.

@slwwesselman, I feel awful and guilty for being so angry and bitter over it. I know them being able to have so many children so easily has nothing to do with me. I know I’m lucky to have my daughter. But with so many who would love to give these children the lives they deserve, why keep them and not take care of them. The children don’t deserve it. They’re not pawns or meal tickets although I’ve seen women have children simply for that reason.

@jhalsted1995, I totally agree and I see it so often. That’s why me and my husband are going to adopt a foster child once we are done having biological children and he gets out of the military.