So not in the Christmas spirit this year 😕 I mean I'm happy I have my unborn & my big boy but it's just not the same without my little fatty, it would've been his first Christmas 😢

My Christmas ? announcement to hubs! I'm putting it in a Christmas card. Hope you get your Christmas BFPs ?. 5weeks today ?

Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

This was nearly impossible for me to choose.

But if it were life or death:

I’d keep Christmas Music, Christmas Tree, and Gifts.

But it broke my heart to leave behind Christmas lights, movies, and Christmas dinner.

Who else has put there Christmas tree up already? Looking through my Facebook loads of my friends have :/ X