And he does this kind of thing over and over again... why is alcohol worth losing everything in your…

And he does this kind of thing over and over again... why is alcohol worth losing everything in your life? Is he depressed? Is this his way of acting out some kind quarter life crisis? He’s a closed book, and I can’t get him to talk to me and I mean talk to me, about his thoughts or emotions. I feel like a failure as a girlfriend 😔