First Actual Christmas Without My Grandmother, She Is What Held Me Together. My parents are getting…

First Actual Christmas Without My Grandmother, She Is What Held Me Together. My parents are getting divorced.. and I'm having another Miscarriage after losing Ryleigh in may... I can't take no more. I want the holidays to be over. Nothing to celebrate this year. Nothing to fight for anymore. I'd rather just not even be here... I just can't handle this