All I want is for my kids to have what I never had which is a relationship with their fathers so I…

All I want is for my kids to have what I never had which is a relationship with their fathers so I decided if the door opens its self to move back to Cleveland I will and I feel that I would have a better chance of them seeing them and I also want to go back to work but no support here but people say Im crazy for feeling this way what else am I supposed to do