ever since i had my son at 28 weeks and 5 days......i’ve been so disconnected from the…

ever since i had my son at 28 weeks and 5 days......i’ve been so disconnected from the world.......this feeling of guilt has taking a toll over me......i’m not an emotional person at all......but i’ve cried every single day almost non stop because i don’t have my son home with me. i know he’s better off where he is but it’s that i want my son feeling that’s making me go crazy. he’s doing beyond wonderful in the nicu i’m so proud of him.....i pray everyday for him and he continues to go beyond measures. i’m a first time mommy so my emotions and everything else is all over the place......i just want my lil baby to be strong and healthy and in my arms.