My kid's dad doesn't do shit with Addilynn she literally was screaming so bad earlier I threw her…

My kid's dad doesn't do shit with Addilynn she literally was screaming so bad earlier I threw her bottle across the room I feel so bad about it because I love my daughter but sometimes I get very frustrated with her and he doesn't help he sits in there and plays his game and doesn't even offer to help and then when I blow up and do something like that I'm the worst mom every I'm terrible I have issues I shouldn't be acting like that infront of the baby like um no shit you think I don't know that I wouldn't get so frustrated with her if I had help when there's someone there more than capable to help me.. and now I have to deal with a cranky baby for 9 hours in a car so he can go see his fucking family while his mom drives and he sits up in the passenger seat with not a care in the world.. then he wonders why I blow up.