So after convincing me to have and keep the kid and leaving me while pregnant and acting like a dumb ass for months and months and making me seem INSANE .. he “apparently” wanted to work on counseling and be a family with our newborn and move out to Cali with me and get married... I then mustered up the strength to just see what I’ve been avoiding all along and I came across my EXfiance talking to and more..... a MILLION bitches over these months....and spending time with and videos and pictures having RAW sex with a girl same time as me when his CHILD was inside of me. Why would her DAD willingly risk her possibly getting something during birth?? Lies of course. I guess I was stuck on him being who he used to be and hoping to anyone that some of it was still there OR that he just got cold feet or had enough respect for me after being my best friend and love for over 6 years to just leave me alone after I asked him to 10000 times. Why didn’t he just go away if he wanted to do this? Nobody even knows i was around or that he had a kid on the way since he lived an hour from me and now 40 hours. I feel like I’ve been in a foggy dream all day. And I feel so sad for my daughter. I wanted a good go at her having both her parents in the same house etc. I know it doesn’t always work out but she didn’t even get the chance. I thought I set it up all right but now I’m just like all the others of my age....... (promise no offense).. it’s getting to me really bad that everything fell apart and I wish I had the strength to see it sooner. Plans in life rarely happen the way they were supposed to. I’ve been staying relatively positive and I’m relieved to not be dragged along anymore but please let me physically find the blessing of this soon cuz I don’t know how I’ll ever be the same towards anyone after this. I have multiple counseling sessions set up for the good of everyone.