Oh my sweet baby, how i love you so, how i yearn for your existence<3. I pray, i work hard, i do…

Oh my sweet baby, how i love you so, how i yearn for your existence<3. I pray, i work hard, i do what i am told and i feel like i am still many steps behind before i reach you <3. I just want to hold you, dress you, bathe you, nurse you, care for you, rock you, cuddle you, kiss and hug you. I want you my little bundle of joy<3. Once again your all i ask for this Christmas and everyday to be honest. I want to bring you home from the hospital instead of having to cry and die in the hospital bed because i lost you along with your older sibling.I want to feel your kicks and hicups inside me. I cry sometimes because i want you so bad, i have dreams all the time and see if your a boy or girl. <3 mommy is waiting for you , please please come to earth<3.

"I have died everyday ..... waiting for you......, darling don't be afraid , i have loved you for a thousand years....., I'll love you for a thousand more"