What I wish my boss knew about my return from maternity leave

Making the transition back to work after having a baby is fraught with contradictions. I started worrying about this transition back almost as soon as I found out I was pregnant. It's a big step in any woman's life and it's also a major shift for families. Navigating this uncharted territory would have been so much easier if my boss had understood these things. I want to be here but I don't want to be here. I want to work, but I also feel incredibly torn. I can't stand the thought of missing each tiny gasp, sneeze, and smile. But