Dealing with my ex in court is not ever going to be easy. I always have to be one step ahead of him…

Dealing with my ex in court is not ever going to be easy. I always have to be one step ahead of him as he is extremely manipulative and pretty much just plain evil. And I need an extremely good attorney as well. Haven't quite found one yet. Have to replace my previous one after today. Really tired of being let down when they could have done more. I am also thankful my daughter who used to be my exes target for abuse, is far beyond the kid he made her out to be (FYI she's not his). I get compliments on her all the time. She does amazing in school and her teacher has said she is an ideal roll model. But most of all, I'm glad she doesn't remember the abuse she endured :( i listened to him once and trusted his judgement. Trust me I feel like an idiot even 4 years after. It never happened again as I threatened to kill him if he ever laid a hand on her again. But of course I was no where near my family, alone and thought things would get better. So nothing was reported and he continues his manipulative and emotional abuse towards me. Thank god it's not her anymore. It is extremely draining on me though. I am in counseling dealing with the abuse in a healthy way. Really trying to keep my head up through this pregnancy. Badly don't want to go back on meds because I become like a zombie with no care in the world ☹️