So a little TMI, but just wondering if any other mamas have gone through this, or have any advice.

Me and my boyfriend haven’t had sex in about 3ish months, mainly because of me being so tired all the time(of course) and the sciatica I have. Saturday was our anniversary and I miss being so close to him, so I figured I’d make his night and finally try and start something. Even when he was just touching me it felt like I was on fire down there, and I tried to ignore it, but when he was inside of me it hurt so badly that I wanted to cry. I didn’t tell him at first because I felt sooo bad, and it makes me feel terrible, like I can’t satisfy him, and of course HE felt terrible because he was hurting me and didn’t know. So we decided to just stop all together. And on top of it my back started hurting sooo bad (from the sciatica) that I DID cry afterwards and could barely even walk.

I’m assuming everything is just swollen and that’s why it hurt so bad, but I’m not positive? Not that I feel like he will go elsewhere, and he’s so understanding about it, but I feel like I’m depriving him and it makes me feel like such a shitty girlfriend nonetheless. We used to fool around alllllll the time, and I’m missing the intimacy hardcore. So any ladies have any advice on anything I can try, why it’s happening, positions that won’t hurt my back so bad? ANY ADVICE AT ALL REALLY. I’m desperate 😫😫😫