Tonight is starting off terrible. I decided to have a drink after I put the baby to sleep because he…

Tonight is starting off terrible. I decided to have a drink after I put the baby to sleep because he doesn't normally wake up until 2am. Tonight he woke up at 9 half an hour after I put him down. I only normally drink half a drink, but I'm still not going to breastfeed him. His dad is all pissed at me because I won't breastfeed him, and he won't take a bottle. I just rocked him for an hour, and put him down in his playpen, in the living room with the wiggles on because he likes that, and there is a heat wave, and the AC is in here 😩 now I'm going to sleep on the living room floor beside him, because I'm really worried something is wrong. #momlife