Update from my last post (warning kinda long but maybe worth the read?) I also look terrible. He…

Update from my last post (warning kinda long but maybe worth the read?) I also look terrible.

He honestly pushes me to my limits, says things he doesn't mean, blows up easily, and sometimes can just be a straight up ass hole because well he isn't perfect. That's what the problem is. Not that he isn't perfect, it's that I expect him to be and get let down way to much when he isn't. That's not his fault. Is he wrong when he does the things he does? YES. But is it worth leaving him and ruining a 2 and a half year relationship? NO. Some days I could walk out on this mother fucker trust me because he can be the person I hate the most, however I cannot imagine my life without his smart ass. But isn't that what love is? Accepting the shitty parts about a person and loving them through it, and enjoying the great things that they do bring to the table? I'll always love him and keep trying as long as I see him doing the same. I know I bitch and complain about him but hell I am a woman that's what I am going to do I need to vent when he makes me want to rip my hair out. What changed my mind tonight and made me honestly realize this. Two very simple things. He walks in to my room after getting off work and coming over and immediately says hey baby kisses my forehead and then holds my belly and talks to Carter and kisses my stomach before doing anything else. Second was the most simple thing. Me laying in his chest listening to his heart beat steady, each thump I realized I love him more than anything and couldn't do this life without him by My side. The thump of his heart makes me feel better about us and it's something he doesn't even control. 🖤