I just need a place to vent.
I am two- three weeks away from my due date and though I am trying to do everything I can (clean, cook, shop, bills and work my part time jobs). I got pulled out of full time work on 9/1 for being high risk, and there have been two hospitalizations since then.
My husband for the record was pushing for me to be pulled because of how bad my health was getting... but now that I am not "working" (I guess my private practice and private tutoring company mean nothing because it is only three days a week) and I am not bringing in my main paycheck - I am now made to feel like shit.
Basically I am reminded everyday how I don't do enough, that he does everything, and that he has to provide for everyone. Even tonight he gets in and is angry that he is the only one who can walk our dog at night, well, she is 75lbs and pulls and we live three flights up so I can't do it anymore for fear she will pull me down. Even though I worked this morning, and he came home to a clean place, his dinner made and his lunches for the rest of the week.
I am just so tired and feeling so low and now I feel like some worthless pos 😑He has just been so angry lately and this is the first time in my life (even for a short period of time) that I am not the actual breadwinner and have some physical limitations and it is freaking me out.
Know that your doing alot right now as it is. Take the time to recognize that yourself and don't beat yourself up for not being able to work. Baby is almost here and it'll all be worth it.
I'm being a slacker today and taking the day off. Who cares what hubby mentioned yesterday lol it's not like I'll be able to relax and sit around all day since I still have things to do before baby arrives.
Have a great day hun!! ☺