I hate how im quick to help others.....ill let you borrow money right away i dont take my…

I hate how im quick to help others.....ill let you borrow money right away i dont take my time....when its time for the person to pay back they taking their time and having a little attitude....i let you borrow money wayyyyyy in June and you still havent paid me bk 😠😠and have the nerve to give some negative energy bk when im asking for some of it bk bc i know you may not be able to pay all at once....im trying so hard to not become mean but i think im going to become mean and care only about me and my family (kids and hubby)......