Have to listen to some music to keep from being mad at hubby over some past things I thought…

Have to listen to some music to keep from being mad at hubby over some past things I thought about...I'm feeling resentful right now towards him but it's really not his fault. It's his ex. She put me in a messed up possible bind.Long story short my hubby taking jobs out of town for the next few weeks n might miss the birth of our child bc of her. I trying my best to keep optimist but I hate his ex with a passion bc she is taking time from hubby to be with me period. He works to take care so much even unnecessary child support....what he told me keep ringing in my head..."Nothing will be taking away from me when I have to pay her support" LIES his time is taken away..... He think he have to work all the time, come home have "his relax time" by his self then go to sleep then do it again the next day.... So not only I have to squeeze my time with him I have to sacrifice my "Me" time. Ahhh so this is what I married into? This ex just won't stop to get at me. Now hubby might miss one of the biggest moments of our marriage all bc of this stupid chick.... I hate her n the fact my hubby have her for a BM.. I never thought it would never come down to this... 😭😭😭😭😭