So... I just get home after being in San Diego for a couple of days with my almost 4 month old son... And he's not really interested in the bottle I just pumped because I haven't been practicing pumping and feeding for a while (I've been to busy trying to run my business)... Daddy springs date night on me after a two hour drive... And wants to use his method of CIO to put baby down for a nap... I of course get upset because I don't personally like that method... And he tries it every time he has the baby instead of holding him until baby is drowsy... And then lay him down tired but awake. Obviously it didn't work... And now I have baby on the boob. I feel bad for the whole family... I've been moving baby from our home, to my friends home for a week, hotel with my sister for a week, grandmas house for 3 weeks, home for a week, g-ma's for a couple of days... ruining his routine because his naps were getting interrupted at my work... And then he's off schedule now because he took a 2 hour nap during the drive instead of his usual 30 min- 1 hr nap... So idk what the heck kind of schedule he's on now... And he's teething, spitting up a bit & has gas... So I'd rather not try to stress the poor kid with having to. Change his routine for falling asleep today. But I was huffy and puffy and closed the door pretty hard in our room across the house... My SO picked the baby up to console him and then laid him down... But he woke up right away... Probably because he's in a new place again... And it wasn't me putting him to sleep. Now my SO if in the other room and won't look at me. 🤦🏻♀️😭
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
so i txted my bd an told him i might wanna move the shower to the park instead of his sisters house because of our arguement an he ignored me so now i will ignore him an not tell him when the baby actually comes. am i wrong??

Wish I could take a full body pic but his Doctor want me to keep him swallowed because his temperature has been really low which has kept me an my baby away from each other all day 😢😟 I haven't got a chance to be with him at all do to it she's been keeping him to keep a close eye on him. I haven't counted his lil toes or none yet 😟 but he's finally here now an I missed him so much omg but I wasn't about to rush them to bring him knowing his health comes first because if it wasn't some to be conc...
Sometimes I have no patience for my dog. He's a puppy and he constantly wants me to hold him or pick him up and he constantly cries. My patience while pregnant is literally at 0 and I feel bad because he's just a baby but I can't help it his crying irritates me 😭
Trigger. Lost baby
Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?