Frustrated. 19 month old screamed almost two hours straight about his pacifier that he can't let go…

Frustrated. 19 month old screamed almost two hours straight about his pacifier that he can't let go of and I couldn't find it. Husband is a police officer and currently working nights so I have the boys mostly all the time unless it's his off day. Husband feels like I been more frustrated with my 19 month old and not wanting to be bothered by him but that's definitely not the case. I love my boys too death and will give them my last. Husband had to stop by the house to find my son pacifier. 19 month old woke up 9 week old. My head is throbbing. I need a drink and a girls night. I love my kids and husband too death but I need some me time for once. Woooossaaaahhhhh!!!! Margarita please!