Heading to sleep soon... finally. She refuses to stay asleep in her bed, but it's ok. For now. As long as she sleeps. Well, sleeps long enough for me to get some sleep.
I swear my fiancé is useless! He's usually asleep way before I am. In top of the fact that I do mostly everything for Melody. *Sigh* I seriously had the beginning of a headache about half a hour ago, just thinking about how useless he's been! I tell him to wake up and watch her while I go to the bathroom (tinkle, wash up, etc,) and what the hell happens? I come in the room and he's frickin' asleep! AGAIN!!! and she's crying, and had been for a while. (FYI: She breaks out when she cries) He has the nerve to say he's paranoid about having to take care of her! But he already had one other child...😒😑😐...like seriously? You've been through this already, grow a pair dude. I'm literally, 4 days out of the hospital, from giving birth and I'm more alert and attentive than he is! I have had far less than 10 hours of sleep, since August 24 (day before I gave birth) and he has the nerve to occasionally complain about being tired! Really dude?!!? I so would love for him to feel what I'm feeling right now!
Ok, enough about him. I need to head to sleep. Im completely frickin' tired/sleep. So, I'm going to sleep while I can. Night lovely ladies!!!😴 😍👶👧😘😴
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

My sweet baby girl gained her angel wings this morning. She was my best friend, my true love my everything. She was so happy and beautiful, I'm struggling to say good bye. Sleep tight princess, mummy and daddy love you very very much ❤️
Trigger. Lost baby
Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?
For Fun
With most of us in a sleep regression or exhausted from being working moms, or just plain bored I figured it would be fun to get a little game started... so who's up for 2 truths and a lie? It's easy.. you post 3 facts about yourself, 2 true and 1 lie and when you guess you post yours here's mine:
Religion Conspiracy/Theory
**This is not to bash peoples religion and beliefs but to talk about our own theories and ideas** I would like to discuss a certain topic that came to mind after talking to my SO. I know some of you ladies like a good conspiracy talk so i would like to have a good discussion and hear thoughts of others. So back story my SO friends got very offended when he mentioned not believing in god or religion and it got me thinking. Is religion a failing form of goverment cont...