
Not on here much...super busy. My husband started his 2nd job last week, and we wake up at 4am, spend time together til 515 am, then he leaves and I don't see him til the next morning. I'm having such a hard time with it. I miss him so so much, but I can't tell him how much I miss him or he will feel guilty. so i will sit and feel sad til morning. 😭😭😭😭😭 picture because I love my baby ❤
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I know my man gotta hustle and make that Mula but I'm so tired of bae working over time I hate being lonely all day and I miss him so much grr ugh 😢😣
I just want his arms wrapped around me one last time and hear words come out of his mouth that arent true "I love you".. I miss him so bad. My first love! My first relationship! He was many of my first and I know today isnt even the hardest day yet.. I literally hate that I love him so much.

Am I wrong to be upset? Last night I was running a fever, weak, tired, sore, my left boob feels like it got used as a punching bag. I asked my husband to call out of work today to help me with the kid so I could get some rest. He went to work. I texted him this morning. Part of me thinks I mean. The other part of me thinks I was fine for saying that because he should've stayed home with us.