Sitting here at 4am finding myself in the same position that begs me to quit. I've missed my period. Not totally uncommon for me, and I've been under a little stress. But I've missed it. What if its this time, the glory, the fun, the life... and what if I cramp, or my vag feels heavy. Those always come so quick, a few hours before.

We've decided to stop trying so hard after this, but how do you stop these thoughts once a month once you've started? Who ever knew this door opened led to such a long twisted road.