Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Birth Plan Rant

I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?

So I'm thinking of baby girl names , because I pray that baby number two is a girl 👑

My son's name is Eli & I would like for her to have an "E" name like my son.

So far I have three I like

Elle

Eva

Eliza

Short, simple and unique 😍 Any more you ladies can think of besides Elizabeth lol ?

Can I see all the mommies belly's and how many weeks are you 😁 sorry that's the only pic I have that you can actually see my baby I'm 23 weeks today what do you think I'm having ?

Please help!

My doctor is trying to induce me before 40 weeks because she's going to be off on my due date and says my placenta is starting to look old. How do I get labor started?? I don't want to be induced for no reason and I'm thinking I won't have a choice. Please help. What do I do to get things going?