VENTING. I swear my mom makes me feel like the worst daughter and person in the world. She blames me…

VENTING. I swear my mom makes me feel like the worst daughter and person in the world. She blames me for leaving her all alone, & making her be far away from Harley. When all I've ever wanted was for her to have a close relationship with her granddaughter. So much shit has changed ever since she got with this guy and somehow I always get the blame. He is the reason we no longer visit HIS house where she is currently leaving. He is the reason my mom is so emotionally unstable for always pulling shit with other women, making her doubt her strength and inner peace. Now that we are moving, she blames me for taking Harley away far, we only live 30 min away and she has hardly come visit bcc of her boyfriend. Somehow she always makes excuses for him, his actions, and the way he is. I know I need to steer clear of her but it's so hard bc all I've wanted was her support and love for my daughter. My illusion was how can she be a good grandma when she lacks the communication with her own daughter. This is why my husband gets bothered when I tell her of our plans, or just talk to her. She always manages to make me feel like utter shit and I always end up crying and ruining my own day. I feel like my husband is already fed up with all the shit I tell him and I have no one to talk to but my sister. Fuck.