I'm on a mission to find myself again! I lost myself when I started having kids. I became so…

I'm on a mission to find myself again! I lost myself when I started having kids. I became so depressed and obsessed with my weight that I didn't love myself anymore. As long as my kids and husband was happy I didn't care about me. I started letting myself go as in my confidence and how I carry myself. I became disgusted every time I looked in the mirror and I hated buying myself things. My husband to this day still tells me how much he love me and how I'm beautiful but I need for myself to feel that again. It's crazy because nobody knows I feel this way besides my husband and now you all. Well I made a promise to myself while I was pregnant this time that after my 6 weeks and c-section recovery I'm going to make a change. Healthier eating first, exercising, drinking more water, and losing this weight plus taking care of myself overall.