I'm so tired of his PPD the real me is being taken over by this person who is always full of irritation,rage and sadness. My family isn't helping at all I have no one. The whole reason we moved from Idaho back to Louisiana is because my "family" was here. Everyone who kept telling us to move back doesn't visit. My grandma never even met my almost 4 month old. She's 69 but she's super healthy for her age and drives all over btw. I'd understand if she was super old and couldn't do anything. I can't visit because money is tight and my husband needs the car for work. My mom moved back to Mexico to take care of her mom but she's been in the states for about a month now and only visited once. It was the first time she met my 15 month old and 3 month old. She passed by here twice and called while she was passing by not hours before not a day before while she was passing by! I have kids I'm not glued to my phone 24/7.She doesn't know what it's like to be with kids on your own with no help. She always had help. I have another family but their "busy" etc..... my husbands Indonesian and his other Indonesian friends are so damn nice. The second night we brought my baby home his friends that live 2 hours away came to visit right away they got here at 1 am and left at 2:30 and they had work in the morning.his mom every time we video chat cries and cries because she wishes she could hold them.I cried and cried in the shower that night because that's so fucking nice and my own family can't even come to visit. That's okay I guess. I just hate that we moved back from Idaho was so beautiful the scenery it was affordable to live. It was another world. Probably no one will read this that's okay I just needed to get it out. If you did thank you sorry it's so long😬