I know all of you would say that I deserve to be happy and shit, that I deserved to be treated like a queen because I am…

I know all of you would say that I deserve to be happy and shit, that I deserved to be treated like a queen because I am one. I'm hung up on my husband because everything we had. I just feel this type of way, that if i can't feel like he can be there for me like a friend or just someone to talk to, to where he can emotionally help me or mentally challenge me, or make sure I'm doing alright, then why am I so up with helping him ???? Like ???????? Yes I would want him to be with me but not for things to be the same . And I don't want to hear don't put yourself through it, I just need someone to listen to me and understand it's hard going thru this and I don't want my mind to go on haywire mode.