I've been dealing with a lot lately and I'm feeling super down... my father passed away and my…

I've been dealing with a lot lately and I'm feeling super down... my father passed away and my grandpa is also passing...I think I'm getting depressed again but I don't have anyone to really talk to about it. My hubby tries his hardest to understand, but it's hard for him he's never had to deal with this. Nobody in my family understands either because I had a different father than the rest of my siblings. I just need help.