Laying in my room thinking in the dark and quiet.......I miss a lot of things and as much as I love…

Laying in my room thinking in the dark and quiet.......I miss a lot of things and as much as I love my children I wish I could keep things the same and go back in time to hold my younger self and tell her it's all going to be ok she needed that and no one would she was always caught up in her mom and dad's drug issues and domestic violence being drug from crack house to crack house at all hours of the night missing school to eventually dropping out of school due to an abusive fiancé that put a gun to her head knowing she was pregnant.....god how I wish for one second I could go back and just hold her let her know she's strong and better than the evils of the world stronger too and let her know she is loved by herself and a lot of people and that she doesn't have to hide her gorgeous face behind a gothic mask because she feels as if no one understands well little one your older self understands and loves you dearly I just wish you could see it -sincerely letters to myself by tara shea mcgrew