Iam a first time mommy n I love my daughter with all my heart ..i just feel horrible my emotions has…

Iam a first time mommy n I love my daughter with all my heart ..i just feel horrible my emotions has drowned me😭😭I suffer from depression sence I was a kid n I learn to control them n hide them good so no one knows how I feel. Being a mommy is hard it really is I just had her 2 weeks ago n it has kill me cuz I cannot even produce enough breast milk to feed her very well and makes me feel horrible that I cannot produce enough milk not only that I had to go to the store n buy her formula wich kills me cuz I don't want to give her formula but I cannot even produce enough breast milk...and to kill it more my mother law always talks crap about how formula is bad n breast milk is better, n I fuken know that breast milk is 100 times better ..but wat can I do if I cannot even have enough milk so I have to give both .I hate feeling worthless I hate my body the way I look.... I hate to have cancer checks ups ,.but I won't give up for my daughter I have to try for her .💖💖💖💗💗👸#ilovemyprincess#thisshouldpass#