Just got home from the ER. Was there for over 3hrs!!Been so stressed out for over 24hrs. Bawling my eyes out. Feeling…
Just got home from the ER. Was there for over 3hrs!!Been so stressed out for over 24hrs. Bawling my eyes out. Feeling like puking. So much stomach pain. That I had to go in. Turns out she is all okay. But was told to stay away from stress as much as possible. So come home and my fiancé is apologizing how shitty he was for putting me under that much stress and shit like that.(personally this is his last chance to figure out if it's us or drugs).
But it's pretty sad. I am laying in bed and my cat is right by my side the second I get home and been by me. And still now.
My fiancé on the other hand. He was for a bit but now he is downstairs on his phone probably playing video games. 😒😒 just about to say fuck it. He is on his last chance. Guess better not fuck it up. Bc if he does I will disappear and he won't know where his daughter or me are.
🧡Ashlee🧡·
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Awe I hope everything turns out right for you guys !! 🙏🏽
Kristy Soesbe·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (32 нед.)
@ashleea9898, thank you. I get being an addict is hard. But when he takes that he is so mean and disrespect that if one wrong thing is said he will punch things and go nuts, the baby can't be around that.
Trying to get into couples councling and figure out solutions to move passed all this and trust to be earned.
It's been a long road to his recovery and it's been taking a ton of patience. But after this if he does mess up again then I am done. Because I have tried so much and if he can't do it for his daughter than it's not worth it.
🧡Ashlee🧡·
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@krispy1996, Yeah it's not easy at all . We knew this family & they were like our family & the mom was an addict & she would have my cousin (her daughter) go through hell ): She would do crazy things like run out the house naked in the streets & My cousin was like 12 trying to get her back inside . It's definitely traumatizing & it's no joke having an addict as a parent & I really hope it just sinks in to him that it's his choice on how he wants his child to view him in the future . I know that it's super hard but he has to be a role model for his child now & can't be selfish & do drugs when he's depressed or for whatever other reasons . There is many other ways to cope with problems & drugs Is not the answer & if anything it makes things worse .. You guys will be in my prayers . 🙏🏽
Kristy Soesbe·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (32 нед.)
@ashleea9898, I have seen him at his worse (he is really dark and scary)and he has made it far but he just obviously has two sides to him when he is and isn't in them. So this past week has been hard so I didn't want to accuse him till I knew for sure.
Like don't get me wrong. This is nothing than what has been before but Brooklynn will be here in 8weeks if not sooner or later and this needs to be fixed.
I need the prayers big time. Thank you ❤️