Havent really slept longer than 2 hours a night total since Athena was born. She never sleeps and when she finally does, then my son (who used to always sleep through the night 12+ hours) wakes up for 2 or more hours at a time. My husband is a literal corpse when asleep and wouldn't know if he caught on fire, so I'm on my own. You can't "sleep when the baby sleeps" if you have 2 babies that never sleep at the same time. I have mastasis from my low iron due to blood loss and it feels like a million small swords in my boob. I'm so tired and in pain and emotionally drained and depressed. I'm so stupid to think I could ever mother 2 young children.