My kids father has truly hurt me beyond what words can describe I have so much anger built up…

My kids father has truly hurt me beyond what words can describe I have so much anger built up inside. Every time I look at my kids I just want to cry cause to know he picked the streets over his family is hurting me so bad his mind is so gone it hard watching someone you love do so much harm to there self I just broken inside I'm trying to stay strong for my kids but it's so hard