Having some pretty intense constant lower back pain and maybe super light contractions. But can't tell because the back pain is way over powering contractions so I'm walking around my room to see if they get worse.

IUI Monday!!

So today I went in for my routine bloodwork and ultrasound, and found out that I have three follicles at 17mm! Plus another two at 15mm. When leaving the clinic my FS said to take another dose of gonal-f and come back tomorrow to check to see how big they got and that we would do the iui on Wednesday. Well, after getting home, taking my gonal-f and going out to shovel snow (lol) I get a call saying that I am SURGING!!! I haven't ovulated on my own, or even come close to it in years...

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I'm afraid my baby girl might be getting too chubby... I love her rolls, but should I worry?

wellll.....I guess that I'm back

Getting blood work back Monday to confirm another miscarriage. I want so bad to throw in the towel. This is my 2nd mc in a row. I'm supposed to be 5w3d. I want to give up. But I want so bad for my son to be a big brother. He deserves this. But right now all that feels like us breaking my heart over and over again for him.