I thought i was irratating my husband so bc my emotions are screwed up i spiraled into depression…

I thought i was irratating my husband so bc my emotions are screwed up i spiraled into depression and ended up crying some. Then i started rubbing his head calmed down some, but ended up crying once again. He asked me if i was ok. I lied at first and said yeah through the tears. Then i told him i was fighting with depression again. He asked why i was sad. It took me a minute but i told him i thought he was irratated with me. He told me he isnt, but feels like hes the one irratating me. I told him hes not, bc he never does. Hes like well neither are you. I ended up smiling some then getting myself pulled back together. I always feel like im the irratating one, bc i dont work right now. I cant help him until after the babys born, and sometimes i feel like im to controlling even though i try to let him do what he wants. I only ask him to do stuff every so often. I guess i feel like im being controlling bc hes the one working all the time. He said im not though. Just like recently he said hes gotten to where even if hes around me all the time his acassional game playing is his time to himself, so thats why he doesnt feel the need to take a break from being around me like he used to. Now the only time he feels like he needs a break from anything is when the situation of us living with my parents annoys him and gets to him. One day after the babys born and i can help him well get our own place. Just without me helping its impossible, bc everytime we start saving up money we have to break into it. Like we did this time bc he was sick and out of work for a whole week. This pay checks gonna suck badly. We werent even able to pay on my tool bill. Matco tools is gonna pinch my credit for that, but i was more worried about him getting better. Things are hard right now yes, but we know its gonna get better so were trying to hang in there for now.