There are a few things that I continue to learn on this journey I am beginning. 1. There is no Such…

There are a few things that I continue to learn on this journey I am beginning.

1. There is no Such thing as a plan and life is no longer even close to being in my hands

2. Ask for help because will help (this is my hardest)

3. I need to be mentally happy and present to be able to provide for my daughter. I feel 100% capable and ready to take on this challenge, but I am slowly realizing that my plan to nurse may put me at serious risk for unhealthy mental state and distract me from Being able to be present 100% for her. Today I made a lot of excuses about why I couldn't take the steps needed to increase success in breastfeeding but I also believe these excuses were valid for me and Kali and I was able able to feed my daughter and provide for her and enjoy her and rest when I needed it.

4. I need to not fear judgement or having my own voice.