Hello everyone! I'm not the type to write on social media but here I go! I'm a mom of 4 little ones…
Hello everyone! I'm not the type to write on social media but here I go! I'm a mom of 4 little ones (6,5,3,2) and been with SO for over 9 years. He is a SAHD & I work full time from home mostly. We are always around each other. I am going through bad PP depression and anxiety after our fourth especially. I never recovered after each one. My SO expects me to be strong and that there's no such thing and doesn't seem to understand me at all! He thinks I would cheat on him during business meetings...really? I've always been faithful to him even though I've been having a lot of anger and sadness and can't keep up with my emotions. I don't really have any friends that I trust to talk to without some sort of judgement. I'm breaking down here! I want to be happy again without the swings. I must mention he is a wonderful father and takes great care of chores around the house but I'm so exhausted mentally and I feel so alone without any support
charong·
Мама двоих (8 лет, 12 лет)
Have you tried talking to him or trying couples therapy. I heard that really works.
Stephany Azar·
@charong, I feel like everytime we talk it gets worse...he says I don't listen to him which I don't! I can't focus at all even at work. I'm also homeschooling the kids which he doesn't help with but he plays an intense story line with them and build them a GI joe base and teaches them about things in life but nothing core like reading and math...that still falls on my shoulders plus full time job! I feel like I have changed so much for him and the babies that I don't know who I am or what my passion is anymore
Stephanie·
Мама двоих (младенец), ждёт третьего
I'm sorry momma. You're doing a lot .. maybe take some time to just do you. Is it possible
Stephany Azar·
@luceromommy, I will feel guilty the whole time sadly
charong·
Мама двоих (8 лет, 12 лет)
It sounds all overwhelming. Maybe both of you could write letters to each other. Would that have less anger?
Stephany Azar·
@charong, thank you for your advice. We did speak last night. Things seem a bit better but definitely in need of some alone time and some less PP mood swings from me.
charong·
Мама двоих (8 лет, 12 лет)
Me time is always good! Hope everything works out
Amber Jenkins·
Мама двоих (младенец)
I'm in a battle with ppd and I know what you're going through it's hard, actually the hardest thing I've ever been through. My ppd is making me feel like I'm dying, and making me have horrid aniexty! And the stress and emotional impact my SO is h throwing towards me is NOT helping, so no judging here I understand, you don't have to go through this battle alone! I'm here if you ever need to talk! Stay strong for those babies
Stephany Azar·
@skyejones5858, thank you so much for the comment. Would love to have some support. I had a great conversation with my SO today and told him I need his help and he understands me better now...I hope he doesn't get impatient with me. But I'm definitely realizing that I need more support and I'm not weak for dealing with it. So feel free to Private msg me at anytime.
Amber Jenkins·
Мама двоих (младенец)
Anytime us mommas have to stick together, never feel bad for asking for help, and I give support to receive it cause the lord knows I need all the support I can get. And same goes for you I'm only a message away if ya every get to feeling down or having one of those hard days where the ppd is almost unbearable I'm here and I'm also here if you're just wanting to talk.