I swear the pain just keeps getting worse. This weekend is my first Mother's Day without her and in 2 weeks, my first…

I swear the pain just keeps getting worse. This weekend is my first Mother's Day without her and in 2 weeks, my first baby (her oldest grandchild) graduates high school and that same week, my youngest (the last grand-baby she ever met) turns 1. I know how much she wanted to be here for both. She wasn't sick. There were no signs of her leaving us. She was fine. I still don't understand what happened. I never even got to tell her goodbye. God it hurts so much. 😪